A New Crush??

I never thought I would ever say this, but today was my first theoretical ob/gyn class and I LOVED IT!!! Though it was merely an introductory lecture filled with different definitions, but my curiousity levels jumped high up the minute the lecturer started talking:) and I love it when am that curious:D

I kind of missed that feeling,,of being so into something that I lose track of time,,that the questions fire up in my brain,,that it is just me in that place- focused!! Once more, medicine is interesting!!--> now,, when was the last time I said this sentence?? I don't even remember:-S

It could be only the influence of a good teacher, but am keeping my expectations low for the coming lectures to maximally enjoy them, hopefully:) But I just can't wait for tomorrow:p

I just find it really funny that ob/gyn was NEVER on my list ( which still might be true since I didn't start the real disgusting practical part of it yet) but who knows what could happen ;) I might end up delivering babies for the rest of my life --> LOL that really sounds so funny to be honest :D

well well well,,,will wait and see :)

A New Crush??

Me the stupid me

I hate perineum!!!!

hate it hate it hate it..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

:'(

after 3 hours doing this stupid perineum that seemed to last forever, i feel am reading it for the first time...

its like i never studied it b4,,,it sucks.

and u know wt?? I can't solve ANY of the questions about it either!!!

my final exam is 2moro and its 12:10 am...i still need to do embryology:-(but i can't go farther if i don't know a thing in this stupid peice of garbage:-(

the finals are my only hope to not sink in human structure ocean,,,but now....i think the result is clear:'''(

Me the stupid me

I wonder

last Tuesday, i went to the vice dean's office for some issue and we ended up talking about many other things...and one of them is the difference between the studies here in our college in Oman and West Virginia Uni in the US...and among the reasons he mentioned explaining why the students there are better is that many Omani students in our college have entered medicine because of family influences and not by their own choice...and at apoint he said: for the moment, what i really try my best to do is to find those those people and convince them to leave college ASAP coz i can't imagine spending the best years of my life and youth doing something i don't like!!
then,,there was a very brief moment of silence,,i don' t know what i have shown or how my expressions were like but he suddenly said in big shock: OMG!!! you are one of them!!!

i took my bag in hurry and said:sorry but i hv to go for my lab..am late..
i left quickly and heard him saying from behind: come and c me again soon!!

I wonder

Where is the problem??

since i moved to so7ar, and my grades are going down and down!!! Damn i can't get more than 80% in human structure!!!
its not a mistake..its 80 not 90!!!
i hate it...

this quiz was the easiest, the easiest, and the easiest... but i messed up a lot and a lot!!!
i know that i didnt prepare well for it...
i just didnt want to study!

i lost interest in studying despite the fact that i havent been studying a lot in the past couple of years!
i dnt think am no longer interested in medicine,,cz i am....but i just want to go away from everything around me.

and its not about the environment in so7ar that made me fell like that cz i've been wishing to study and move here since i was a kid..

its just sad..i pitty myself...and i dnt seem to be able to fix it.

Where is the problem??