a lie is way better than the truth!

Is it too much to ask for a little bit of understanding to my mental status now?!!!!!!

I don't want your sympathy! I don't want your pity! I don't want you to freaking tell me "come ooooon, it's the truth"! you think I don't know the truth???!!! Or worse "you brought it on yourself"!!! #ShootMe

lie to me!

I am serious..lie to me!

am not stupid, I can tell that you are lying and you know that I understand that clearly...so why not?! It's definitely better than the ugly truth!

For the first time in my life, I can't be happy.. I can't "feel" happy.. or pretend that everything is going to turn out "just" great because it effin' isn't! I am drowned into a deep state of depression that writing here is all I have left!

If you are not going to make me "feel" happy, don't bother talking! Don't make it worse! You awe me, at least, this much.

a lie is way better than the truth!

Do I really care?!!

It's a ranting session. Don't read if you are not interested!

"I don't care!"

It's a lie. It's a lie that I keep telling myself. And no matter how ignorant I try to be, no matter how many "whatever moments" I show to others, I still do. I can't sleep at night. I can't focus in class. I can't stay up to date with my friends. And I can't keep pretending that I don't care even if that is all I feel!!!!

But deep inside, I do. And it's driving me crazy.

I just lost my drive. I don't feel like going on anymore. I need a freaking break!!!!

I hate whatever is making me feel this way. Stupid!

Do I really care?!!