Where is the problem??

since i moved to so7ar, and my grades are going down and down!!! Damn i can't get more than 80% in human structure!!!
its not a mistake..its 80 not 90!!!
i hate it...

this quiz was the easiest, the easiest, and the easiest... but i messed up a lot and a lot!!!
i know that i didnt prepare well for it...
i just didnt want to study!

i lost interest in studying despite the fact that i havent been studying a lot in the past couple of years!
i dnt think am no longer interested in medicine,,cz i am....but i just want to go away from everything around me.

and its not about the environment in so7ar that made me fell like that cz i've been wishing to study and move here since i was a kid..

its just sad..i pitty myself...and i dnt seem to be able to fix it.

Where is the problem??

Cool..

we are painting our room^_^
thats exciting!!

Cool..

Pissed!!

I don't know what is wrong with that instructor!!!
She insists on ME DOING the announcement after the unexpected reaction from the students the other day..

That day was a nightmare..no, it is more than that...
the faces of the students shouting in my face are still in my memory and , till now, i couldn't manage to get them outside my mind..that's why i don't wanna go through this experience anymore!!
If she is pissed of students coming late to her class, then she has to lock the door..its her class and no1 is going to talk about it because SHE IS THE DAMN INSTRUCTOR and she is free to do whatever she wants in her class,, even the dean can't say anything about it!
i dnt understand how it is the class rep responsibility...class reps are there to make the connections between students and instructors BUT NOT TO MAKE RULES AND CARRY OUT THE BURDEN OF MAKING THEM!!

i think she should be aware of that..and regarding me going to the dean and discussing this issue ,,,this is soooo not going to happen,,even in her dreams.

Pissed!!

Doesn't feel good..

once, i critisized sm1 (lets say S) bcz S was using my own words but in a different contest...like today we will talk and tomorrow we talk again and S will use some unique words of me from yesterdays conversation!!!

It kept going on and on..and i got pissed of!!! for nothing but i want S to actually talk to me from all their hearts and minds and imagination instead of using others' words!! and much worse, mine!!

Anyway, as they say: days go around,, and now i find myself imitating one of my dearest friend's words just like that!!! and i didnt notice till sm1 actually brought it to my attention that i added few words to my dictionary...

now, my qs is: is it an act of love that you keep saying one's words unconsciously?? probably when u get sooo much attached to sm1, it just happens that u find yrslf talking in that one's way using that one's words! probably bcz u spnd much time talking to that person and u just dnt realise it?!!

and now that i had these thoughts in my mind, i find that i may have been wrong in my judgment about S..mayb after all, it was an act of love and attachment to start acting and talking like the person u like much unconsciously!!



i guess i owe S an apology.

Doesn't feel good..