Anticipation of A Bad Day

it is frustrating how some dreams can be soo annoying to the extent that they ruin your mood for the day:-S

esp, wen they are related to the crapy problems within your family..

i wonder what the future holds..

Anticipation of A Bad Day

Ya Allah..

Yesterday when I got your empty msg at 2:08 am, I thought that Allah sent you for me!!

I was in dessperate need for someone!!

but obviously, it was the crapy nawras network that sent that msg:-/

But when I replied to you, I sooooo wished that you answer me back,,even with an empty msg,,even if unconsciously from your dream world:-(

Oh grandpa!!

You left suddenly and the threshold level has dropped to the minimum..it is so hard to adjust,,especially when everyone around is crashing,,everyone is just waiting for "the moment" to explode in everyones' faces..

I was very scared yesterday..I am scared..

and apparently...fragile:'(

Ya Allah..

..إلى رحمة الله ياجدي

اللهم اغفر له وارحمه ، وعافه واعف عنه ، لقِّه الأمن والبشرى والكرامة والزلفى ، اللهم إن كان محسناً فزد في حسناته ، وإن كان مسيئاً فتجاوز عن إساءته ، اللهم اغسله بالماء والثلج والبرد ، نقه من الخطايا كما ينقى الثوب الأبيض من الدنس ، أبدله أهلاً خيراً من أهله ، وداراً خيراً من داره ، وجيراناً خيراً من جيرانه ، اللهم لا تحرمنا أجره ، ولا تفتنا بعده ، واغفر لنا وله

..إلى رحمة الله ياجدي

I wonder

last Tuesday, i went to the vice dean's office for some issue and we ended up talking about many other things...and one of them is the difference between the studies here in our college in Oman and West Virginia Uni in the US...and among the reasons he mentioned explaining why the students there are better is that many Omani students in our college have entered medicine because of family influences and not by their own choice...and at apoint he said: for the moment, what i really try my best to do is to find those those people and convince them to leave college ASAP coz i can't imagine spending the best years of my life and youth doing something i don't like!!
then,,there was a very brief moment of silence,,i don' t know what i have shown or how my expressions were like but he suddenly said in big shock: OMG!!! you are one of them!!!

i took my bag in hurry and said:sorry but i hv to go for my lab..am late..
i left quickly and heard him saying from behind: come and c me again soon!!

I wonder