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well,,i feel awkward to even write this!! It has been ,,ever,,since i last blogged..but what happened today was very interesting!!

i was going to meet some frnds out,,but i needed to go to the garage to pick mom's car first. So, dad drove me there..he got mom's car..and we exchanged places..

the car has been there for few days and it had no gas!! the mechanic said that it had ENOUGH to reach a petrol station and fill it up..well i guess u know what happened next:D

i was held behind by traffic lights,,when the car suddenly started shaking!!!

it looked like its soul is about to leave:p and at the moment that the light was green, it just went off!!!

i was the 1st car in the line!!

ppl were looking at me,,mad ofcourse,,but what could i do?!!

i cud actually see them peeking at me with that look on their faces: oh ofcourse it is a girl driving!!

luckily, my dad was following me:) he wanted to make sure that i reach a petrol station,,so i just got out and went to wait in his car,,he was so mad at the mechanic for leaving the car like that..every1 was looking!! it was very embarrassing!!

but now that i look at it..what happened made me see a bigger picture of what i might be facing by driving alone!!Its risky!! Its not only abt driving and speeding and being independant anymore!!

if dad wasn't there, i wud'v probbly called him and then burst into cry:-S

i'v always been adventurous,,but this wud'v been scary!!

thats why i wanted to learn some mechanical skills,,basic ones,,at least i shud know by now to keep a bottle of gas in the trunk AND shud know HOW to fill the tank 1stly if not to change tires..but who wud teach me anyway:/ when i asked my bro, he laughed and said: u dnt hv to do that..just sit quietly in yr place,,call some1,,lock the doors o just wait!!

i met my frnds afterwards and told them the story:)

it was a nice day tho:)

now i need to go finish packing for this weekends picnic..we r going to Mosandam^_^

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A New Beggining

Yesterday, I was sitting with my dear friend in the lecture hall after classes. We were just playing inserting some fake information in my laptop account. Actually, she was the one creative enough to think of funny things to write and I was the boring partner who just listens:-D

Anyway, she asked me to write some notes about me, and I opened one of my saved messeges that she sent me about a year ago describing my personality. To my surprise, we both couldn't see "me" in that messege!

It wasn't like that in the past. I remember that when she first sent me the msg, I was surprised how much she knew me in a very short period of time (since we are only friends for a year). It was true what she wrote there. She said things like: focused, positive, fighter, thinker, responsible, creative, wise, and many others. All of which was true at that time,,,its just that I can no longer see my self the way she described me..the way I liked myself, the way she liked me, and the way people around liked me!!!!

How did I change to the opposite of all that in just a year???and most importantly, why???

The moment she told me that am a complete opposite NOW to what i used to be before made me think a lot about it.I did change a lot but its not a good change sadly.

I actually had times since last year thinking about the person I am right now. It really gave my friend a headache when i used to talk about it. She used to say: stop crying over who you were and just be one!! Don't waste your time complaining that you no longer the same GOOD person, and just be! Don't think about it, just do it!

The problem is I don't know HOW I turned out like that so I can reverse the process.. I just hope that focusing in my studies would help me a lot cz one of the major things I lost is my self confidence...I really miss it and I do need it..

She is right..I can go on and on complaining and crying over the lost me but I can also make a change..

She asked me last month on my birthday about my top 3 wishes for this year but I didn't answer her..This would be my top wish..

So, am going to do what she said: just be one.

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A New Beggining

Me the stupid me

I hate perineum!!!!

hate it hate it hate it..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

:'(

after 3 hours doing this stupid perineum that seemed to last forever, i feel am reading it for the first time...

its like i never studied it b4,,,it sucks.

and u know wt?? I can't solve ANY of the questions about it either!!!

my final exam is 2moro and its 12:10 am...i still need to do embryology:-(but i can't go farther if i don't know a thing in this stupid peice of garbage:-(

the finals are my only hope to not sink in human structure ocean,,,but now....i think the result is clear:'''(

Me the stupid me