A Try,,

Hey…
You might have read my post (Why?) about my inability to show my love to the people I love… well am still trying,,, no difference till now,,,
Anyway, one of my friends gave me this small book called “Don’t sweat the small stuff,,, and it’s all small stuff” by Richard Carlson and she said: “you can keep it till the next depressed person comes on the way:) ”
The book has very small chapters of (I would call them advices) on how to look differently at things…

Anyway, cutting long stories short, I read this under: Tell Three People (Today) How Much You Love Them:


Author Stephen Levine asks the question, “If you had an hour to live and could make only one phone call- who would you call, what would you say, and why are you waiting?”
What a powerful message!
Who knows what we are waiting for? Perhaps we want to believe we will live forever, or that “someday” we will get around to telling the people we love how much we love them. Whatever the reasons, most of us simply wait too long.
As fate would have it, I’m writing this strategy on my grandmother’s birthday. Later today, my father and I are driving out to visit her grave site. She died about two years ago. Before she passed away, it became obvious how important it was to her to let her family know how much she loved us all. It was a good remainder that there is no good reason to wait. Now is the time to let people know how much you care.
Ideally, you can tell someone in person or over the phone. I wonder how many people have been on the receiving end of a phone call where the caller says, “I just called to tell you how much I love you!” You may be surprised that almost nothing in the world means so much to a person. How would you like to receive the same message?
If you are too shy to make such a phone call, write a heartfelt letter instead. Either way, you may find that as you get used to it, letting people know how much you love them will become a regular part of your life. It probably won’t shock you to know that, if it does, you will probably begin receiving more love as a result.



Okay, for a start, I wrote 5 letters till now:) : 2 for my parents, the remaining 3 for my brothers and sister ( I swear my brother’s response would be “LMAO” but, anyway:D)
They are coming tomorrow. Will see what happens:)


UPDATE:
dady hugged me:)
mom told me, smiling, that she was scared at the beggining,,she thot am in some sort of trouble, as always:D
my bro loved it and hanged it on the wall in his room:)
the others just laughed and said; r7meena:p

A Try,,

Why???

Why is it so hard to let people know how much you value them??

Why is it so hard to give sweet kisses for people because you want to, not because you have to??

Why is it so hard to just say " I love you" directly in the face when you really feel like saying it??

I don't know what is the situation with you, but it wasn't long time ago when I realised that I havn't told my parents before that I love them..I never kissed my sisters, brothers, freinds or anyone unless I had to, or it was "the thing" to do (like coming back home, or Eids, birthdays, etc.)!!!!

It might not seem a big deal but have you ever encountered a situation where you felt that you really want to show your love and affections for some people but couldn't do it??!!

In the past mother's day, when I greeted my mom, I literally couldn't say a single word!!! And all I did is crying!!! not that I was so emotion-full (but not that I wasn't either) but because I couldn't let the words come out of me :(

I felt depressed and sad for myself (and for her because she definately was expecting something out of me)...I wanted to tell her that I love her, that I am thankful for everything she did and does for me, for being always supportive, and that i always pray for Allah to keep her and dad for me...but the chicken me didn't get the courage to talk!

Another instance was a month ago,,when my family came to my hometown for the weekend,,my dad said to me as soon as we met that he was watching a program on tv ( I don't know what the show was about) but he felt that he want to kiss and hug all his kids,,but because he was in Muscat, am in Sohar, my brother and sister were somewhere in the world, he couldn't..and he bacame so tearfull and me.....just froze!!!!!

I hated myself at that moment..I wanted to hug him but I didn't :(

No wonder my parents say am "a dry/emotionless" kid..

And the list continues..but the funny thing is when you kiss people you just met (like they are your friend's freind) when you feel nothing about them and you can't do it for people who deserve/desire it..

I can no longer use the excuse: "I am not used to it"!!!

I think am old enough to make certain changes in my life...

Its just that I don't know why I don't have the power to do it :(

Why???

Regret

"have you ever found yourselves making the wrong decisions,,the ones you see right, day after day and no-one bother to even comment about them if not correcting'em ??!!and one day,,you finally make a decision that you are totaly convinced that it will make you happy for the rest of your life, but everyone sees it wrong??!!!
what do u do then??you know it deep inside you that YOU ARE DAMN RIGHT,,but can't talk about it or even try to explain it to others:-(what happens next is that you follow what others want...don't say that's called giving up, because soon you will realise that this is the best thing you can do to your self and for others around you.then what?? you move on leaving everything behind and start again...you manage to satrt over and you seem happy with your decisions and everyone around is happy,,,,,,,,,but
now that you have grown up and you are able to act as an adult, you realise that your adolescent decision wasn't bad after all!!! in fact, it is much much better than the one you chose to live with!!!
now, you have to deal with the concequences of a bad decision for the rest of your life,,,and the problem is, there is no-one around you that can comfort you or maybe help...and now,,when you made other life changes based on that bad decision,you simply can't change a bit of things at all..
you are left all alone,,with regret"

Regret