I don't deserve to be loved!!!I have a dark past and its hunting me!! and no matter what i do, and whenever i think i've passed it, something just appears in front of me that destroys everything i've been trying to build:-(
I strongly need to forget...
I wish i can throw everything behind...
for years, i beleived that one's past is part of who you are.. I beleived that the past helps you to become the person you are right now,,
I never regreted my mistakes coz I wouldn't be the same person I am right now without them..untill now:-(
I dnt know...when i do them, they just feel right at that time,,i think this is natural,,that's why i dnt regret them because they were nice then and gave me a good feeling and meant something.. and wen they turn on to be bad,,then just try to correct, forget them and move on...
but, wt to do wen it just start chasing u??!!!
wallah i regret it now..a lot..
i just want to live in peace!!!
but wen that thing that runs behind u is loyality!!!
smthing u never kept,,and it is keeping u...
God how much i dislike myself:-S
I dnt deserve to be loved...at all!!
4 comments:
Everyone deserves to be loved... a baby, a fireman, an enemy... cuz' we all are humans and we are God's creation.
There are some times when you make mistakes that are grave and while some would love to take them back... some burn but like you said they teach you something very important. When that mistake chases you, it only means that it hasn't settled yet. All you have to do is calm down, focus and find out how to settle that mistake.
((I swear I'm not delusional or illusional or drunk ;-). Tc and hope whatever problem you have runs away. ))
i agree with wannabe dr, though i hv doubts about "me deserving 2 be loved" sometimes ..
yet i trust that u will find ur way through this ..
Sometimes you just do something really terrible for someone,,and with all the bad feelings you have about it, you find that that person still has all the respect and love for you, which makes you feel much worse about yourself!!!
I think I sorted it out now, and I hope this remains right:)
thank you both for passing by,,I hope that "us deserving to be loved" turns out to be right...
i feel exactly the same ..
sometimes i swear i'm dying !!
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